new year again. there it goes, the first decade of the 21st century. like a f___t in the wind. excuse me. i mean it's quite a waste.

went to JB the 2nd time to get some air, n some goods. though the quality of air is not as good as it is here, still able to inhale some fresher air.

but seems i cant stay in shopping centers for long. can feel the humming in the brain. no desire for most of the stuff either. no strength to walk around either. rare species of women?

never really ventured into the country. i'd like to explore further but ...(brainwashed by too many stories of accidents)... should i get a life insurance first? for my parents of course. Confucius has once said, when ur parents are still around, don't travel afar. (coz they worry too much, parents at all times). a rare few believe in such a thing in the 21st century, again i'm the rare few. (only told them after my visit)

travel further? for some enlightenment. having the feeling that when wandering about in a foreign land, one will eventually find the direction, the answer. will be out of confusion. then looking back, all the mess is actually nothing, all the pain too.

but only my mind wanders