March

what is means to me:

my 1st round of application has already expired. no interview.

i know i tend to doubt whether i am good enough. then feel jealous about ppl who are worse than me but better off than me. like in 2006 ICA suddenly granted PR in mass, to secondary & primary school kids. I just graduated. Took me years to forgive myself, with the help of Karate in some extent.

this time i don't wanna feel that way. it's not my fault. it's 70% luck. i don't lose out that 30% either. it's their loss.

hang on please. if God closes those doors, it means he has planned something else. where i don't know.

what else it means to me:
i have done whatever i could for fyp. i started from "hello world" to program those things. no one appreciate though. i have learnt a lot but no one cares though. so, just wrap it up. in conclusion it is a good learning experience, contributed nothing to mankind (or my boss) though.

nid to pay rental again. the highest expense for me.

my facebook ban is auto lifted. i din't break my promise. although once under very unusual situation i sent a msg out of goodwill to a person.
when i re-log in, it feels good. i don't have to keep updated with ppl's bubble tea, chit-chat. do i?

and i start to feel lighter, without those handkerchieves.

in my dreams i was a 女侠, in recent years it became a 女侠cum怨妇, now 女侠 has returned, no longer a free soul though, in a journey of job hunting.