It marks the end of the episode.
Now comes the time for "moral of the story", and confession.
I won't regret for anything. I could have stayed in this relationship for a year or so before ending it, to enjoy the benefit such as:
- having someone to care about and be cared about
- having someone to carry your bag, and other heavy stuff
- having someone by your side when feeling lonely
- be less fearful about uncertainties
What else? At another thought, these are things which can be settled by oneself. Also, if i were to stay and enjoy the moment, not only it hurts someone who wants to get married asap, it will also consume my 'coupons':
I believe God has given each of us a certain number of coupons, to redeem love from another person (other than your parents). If i spend it on the wrong person, i would have less coupons when i meet the right one. I don't have a definition for mr right or mr wrong, but i know when we were together, i become more uncertain and internally struggled than i were when being single which is what i couldn't stand. I'm willing to give up my freedom, my dreams, my dignity in a relationship, but not to someone which i am very sure there isn't any future between us.
I'm not sure how much coupons am i holding still. I haven't redeemed much from someone. Whether i have alot or not, let me keep the rest. If there isn't a soul mate in my lifetime, i bear the result willingly. Coz i still have faith, and hope.
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