First Time

To be exact this isn't the first time I resigned (if I count the insurance job in).

Since this is the first job after my degree, well, this is the first time I resigned.

My conscience is clear. I wont judge how good / how bad I've done. I had attitude. But I solved the problem. I could have just solve the problem without showing attitude, to please everybody and win the best-servant-award which is nothing but more demanding requests.
When you are nice, people walk all over you. That's the dilemma of a lonely SA who had to support noobs in the company, on top of fighting fire.
I didn't want to show attitude. It naturally reach a balance like this.
I was burnt down. Every bit of my passion was incinerated.

If there's any regret, it is those docs I wrote, those stuff I Googled and read and tested and documented, and taught the other SA who is supposed to do the same but has been following my instructions without making anything new. Even though I did these, people are still not satisfied. So, whatever I did, it was doomed to be wrong.

Anyway, I can't be a people-pleaser all the time. I have some level of self-esteem.

Remember the following in future,
- do not give when there's no return
- do not be a fool twice
- there's no need to fear. nothing to fear
- do not care about those who do not care about you / your feeling / your well-being / your career / your concern
- do not be nice to people unless if people are nice to you

If you wonder, how can you make people be nice when you are not nice? who need to be nice first?
Well, sounds like a chicken-and-egg problem.
But I figured out it is not.
Life is not a maths/logical problem.
You can tell the level of niceness of a person somehow. Probe with a small test and collect data for analysis. Then decide how nice you should be.
If someone is a jerk, your buckets of niceness wont change anything.

后发制人，先发者受制于人

會過去的(歌詞) 許志安 車婉婉

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一切都会过去的

you will be fine

live long and prosper